Wednesday, June 6, 2007
ok i am back frm chalet and i would roughly post what had happened.
lst day:before heading , me yuhan and waikiat went to meet borui , wangjian , jonny , kamil ,eileen and yuting at jurong east.on the way there, we just crapped all the way and we gt really boredd and even played a stupid game.haha.after a super long journey we finally reached and met up with the rest of the gang at par saris.together we headed to the chalet.hmm the bloody room was so small that we all had to squeeze like some kukus.started the day off by playing some soccer on Ps2.haha.dam funny to see yuting and yuhan play.she play like driving car like that.so cute la.hahaha.after which we decided to go rent bikes for the night.and then the bbq started.thx to the guys of w45f we managed to have a satisfying dinner!lina's fren joined us and then we headed for our night cycling.it was such a tiring one and our butts and arms were aching like hell.but it was super fun.and on that night i realised two things- gary is actually such a noble guy mann.you really rock i tell you.the other is somewhat unpleasant to me and it really spolit my day.i really felt like cycling to the road and let the cars run me over.but thx to WK he calm me down.thx dude.when we got back , i felt soooo fuked up that i needed to vent my frustrations out.again thx to Wk and yuhan for listening to me.while every1 was in the room, i went downstairs to be alone.found a spot on top of some machine and laid there deep in thoughts.First time in a long time i felt the sky was so beautiful and nothing else would matter to me.the day ended somehow like this.
2nd day:all of us were soo shagged that we slept until like 2 or 3.when we all finally woke up , we played with cards.truth or dare.it was really funny to see almost everything got to do with eunice.after we played we went down for another round of bbq.i really didnt eat much and was starving.ate cup noodles with Wk , yuhan and fabian in the end.then we went up to the rooms and boy oh boy a moment of madness occured.gary and fabian were fighting so funnily that you could laugh until u cry i tell you.haha.then the guys all did some taupok.crazy stuff!after we became men again , we decided to play pool.it was some time since i played and was alittle rusty.haha but still managed to win most of the games la.: ) it was sleep time after that.but even before we could do so , our dear eunice locked us out of the room.we couldnt get her to open the door because she was sleeping like a pig sia.in the end, some woman came and open the door for us.
3rd day: it was really short.i woke up like at abt 7 8 and bathe first.den slowlyy watched them one by one wake up.after which we packed up and it was time to check out.headed to macs for breakfast and then played pool yet again.haha.i had a score to settle with kamil cause the night before he beat me to a game.and in the end i won one and he won one.so considered i still lose!!! but then later i tagged with eileen vs him and jonny.and guess who won?!? us!! muahahhaa. so that means i beat kamil!! haha. after playing we said our goodbyes and then train home with deb Wk yuhan fabian and eunice.the rest went escape.home sweet home!
Something that i wish not to happen at the present moment has happened and i am totally devastated by it.Nothing in this world can describe how i feel now.can someone kill me??i wish to die , at least for the moment until the pain is gone.i wanna sleep and forget this , sleep for months and months but i cant.you made your point very clear to me last night and part of me was very sad but part of me was relieved too.Sad because i was gonna lose you as the special someone to me.relieved because this nightmare is about to end.This is life and i have got to face it.but its sooo tough now after i had spent much time and effort to do what i did for that person.i know i didnt do enough but at least i tried to make you happy.i hoped i did.how i hoped that i could be that special someone for you.to care for you.to catch you when you fall.to love you with all my might.you were the only girl i ever felt so attached to.but i guess fate did not allow this.and i say its fate because this is nobody's fault but only mine.blame myself for being so stupid.for being the asshole who caused so much trouble for her.and i am sorry for it.on the brighter side , now i feel the stone in my heart smaller and lighter than it used to be. all i need now is time to heal this pain.its hard but i will try to forget my love for you.and treat you more like a sister now.i think this is the best way because then i can take good care of you but in a brotherly way.i hope you will still treat me the way you used to because i would.brother and sister treaty? : )
